It hit so hard.
I pushed it away and tried to ignore it.
Completely paranoid.
I tried to ignore what I was doing to you, to us.
My biggest fear is losing you.
You can scream at me, disown me, cry to me.
I just couldn't watch them take you away.
But what have I done?
I made this worse.
I just want to make you proud.
I want to show you that you raised a strong woman.
But how can I be strong when I can't stand up to you?
I wish I could go back and change something, anything.
Anything to make this better.
I want to take care of you.
I have nothing left, I gave it all to you.
I'm sorry that I let you down.
Hurt me as much as you need.
I'll be okay.
Because I can't lose you.
I'm just embarrassed for you.