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"Some people's lives seem to flow in a narrative; mine had many stops and starts. That's what trauma does. It interrupts the plot . . . it just happens, and then life goes on. No one prepares you for it. 

"I leave claw marks in everything I touch. But I would sooner gnaw off my own leg than admit that I just want someone to stay for once.

"I don't want my life to be a perpetual loop of trying to recover from something after something and someone after someone. 

I don't want recovery to be all that I am.

"All my grief says the same thing; this isn't how it's supposed to be. And the world laughs, holds my hope by my throat, says: but this is how it is."