I am a forest fire and I am the fire and I am the forest and I am the witness watching it

It's the same song and dance I have seen before. I am standing back watching my world burn. But I hold the gas can, asking God if He started this fire

Ash and dust, everything I care about and love, burning up. I'm praying to God, is this what You wanted? I'm desperate. Make all my hopes and dreams come to life just to lay them to rest.